Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Wednesday, 30 November 2005 - Second chances

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for a second chance (and a third, a fourth, a fifth ....).

No one is perfect... that's why pencils have erasers. ~Author Unknown
Fall seven times, stand up eight. ~Japanese Proverb
I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much. ~Mother Teresa
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders. ~Jewish Proverb

These aren't the second chances meant for one to "get it right" because I may never get it right no matter how many chances I get. These are the second chances I get to make my life count; the ones that force me from the shadows into living sunlight; the ones that say no more weeping - it's time to laugh.

These are the chances that some call luck while I claim serendipity - the ones that help me solve the hardest Sudoku puzzles, write the last line of a never-ending poem, heal my perpetually broken heart, walk another mile in bitter cold winds, and earn my long-awaited PhD in Life.

They dare me to dream gigantic dreams, to wear bright orange and lemon yellow and grass green, to streak red and purple highlights through my dark brown hair, to anticipate living in a new place a year from now, and to savor a piece of France's finest gourmet chocolate without feeling guilty.

Now, I take my second chances - all of them - and I grasp them tightly in my right hand, eyeing them carefully, lest I lose sight of my unique purpose and ruefully watch another day drift quietly into the past.

For these blessings, I am grateful.

Amen.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Tuesday, 29 November 2005 - Clean sweep

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for a clean sweep.

She knew she could do everything she ever dreamed of doing, if only she had a little more space.

I am the expert when it comes to knowing why things don't get done in my house. And yes, the main culprit is lack of storage space for all the stuff we've accumulated during nearly 19 years living in this house. I also suffer from the dreaded "just in case" syndrome.

So, after my latest "come to Jesus" meeting with myself, my marching orders are very clear: no more new stuff until I dispose of the old stuff.

So, it's house cleaning time again. This time, it's a very serious affair. Too much stuff from the past means no room for the present or future. Now, that's no way to live. How can one dance when the space is cluttered with books read once many years ago or fabric once meant for a quilt or yarn long ago promised to a sweater?

Clean sweep. Get out the "don't need it anymore" broom and clear the rooms.

Let me breathe in the space. Let me embrace the emptiness. Let me be free of things so, at a moment's notice, I can pack up my life and move it anywhere in the world.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Monday, November 28, 2005

Monday, 28 November 2005 - Winter clothes

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for a wind resistant jacket, warm gloves and a snug hat.

The arctic cold and bone chilling winds kept us company today. Although the sun shone brightly, the wind chill dropped temperatures into the teens during the afternoon. T enjoyed the cooler weather, but I gritted my teeth during the windiest stretches of our walks. At least I dressed appropriately for the occasion.

My red jacket is an Ebay find - heavy duty Gortex-type fabric and all the bells and whistles and pockets you'd expect to find in a rugged and expensive mountaineering jacket (I spent less than $20 on mine). My black ski gloves are heavily padded and warm. My dark sage green fleece hat is an old favorite, the one I've worn for at least ten winters. I like it because it fits snugly over my ears and won't blow off. And, I guess I should mention my boots - Tevas that I've worn for about three seasons - dark olive green nubuck leather, waterproof and very comfortable.

For these blessings, I am grateful.

Amen.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Sunday, 27 November 2005 - Radio programs

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for my favorite radio programs.

Brrrr. An arctic front descended on the city last night, bringing a dusting of snow and icy cold, blustery winds. My face feels frozen before we reach the park for our morning walk - a mere half block or so. T, our chocolate Lab, loves the cold weather and pulls me along the sidewalk. He's in a hurry to sniff the grass and trees - his way of checking out the lastest canine news aka pee-mail.

For three quarters of the circuit, the wind blows at our backs or sides - not too bad. The last quarter, however, is a real killer - we walk straight into the north wind. I pull my hat down tightly around my ears. T lowers his head and pulls me forward. Although T wants to go another round, I am ready to head for home after two. I promise that we'll go for another walk in the afternoon.

I spend the afternoon working on the computer and tidying my work table (didn't get too far with the latter task). For background entertainment, I turn on the radio to hear some of my favorite shows: A Prairie Home Companion, Riders in the Sky, and The Thomas Jefferson Hour. (On Saturdays, the lineup includes Weekend Edition, Car Talk, What Do You Know, Wait Wait Don't Tell Me and Living on Earth.)

After leaving graduate school and starting my corporate career, I did not own a television set or a car, opting to listen to radio programs and take the bus everywhere. I lived in West Los Angeles so I had the luxury of listening to three public radio stations. I tuned in for opera, dramas, Alan Watts, metaphysical discussions, children's stories, car repair help (pre-Car Talk), jazz concerts, old-time radio shows and the news. When I married, I gained both a husband and a TV. But, I also kept in touch with the world via the local public radio station.

So, the afternoon becomes evening. We take T on that second walk before it's totally dark and manage to endure three bone-chilling laps around the park. After returning home and warming up a bit, I head for my studio and flip on the radio. Just in time to catch the 10th anniversary show of This American Life. Perfect timing.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Saturday, 26 November 2005 - Leftovers

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for Thanksgiving dinner leftovers.

Yesterday, I spent nearly 7 hours cooking the meal, so I'm happy that I won't have to worry about food for a few days. This year, I baked a 23 pound turkey so we have plenty for now and lots to freeze for later.

I cook intuitively so I don't have exact recipes for my dishes. I watch Food Network for ideas and inspirations. So, I thought I'd record the basic ingredients for this year's standout side dishes. I use organic ingredients, if available.

Yams
To about 1 quart of mashed steamed garnet yams/butternut squash, add - to taste - canned crushed pineapple, cinnamon, butter, minced orange zest, and real maple syrup. Simmer on low until liquid reduces and mixture thickens. Stir in 2-3 Tbsp rum. Put in covered baking dish and place in oven to keep warm. Before serving, sprinkle top with lightly toasted sliced almonds.

Cranberry sauce (inspired by Emeril)
In a heavy saucepan, mix together 2 cups fresh cranberries, 3/4 cup freshly squeezed orange juice, 1/2 cup sugar, 2-3 Tbsp orange zest finely chopped. Simmer on med-low until thick. Stir to blend all flavors. Refrigerate. Stir before serving.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Friday, November 25, 2005

Friday, 25 November 2005 - Handmade gifts

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for handmade gifts.

No standing outside the mall entrance before 5 AM for me (I will confess, however, that many, many years ago, I would have been first in line). In fact, no mall shopping at all unless absolutely necessary as in life-or-death situations. I'm making nearly all of my holiday gifts (although for those hard-to-please people, I'm ordering gifts online). I hope that others will be doing the same.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Thursday, 24 November 2005 - Thanksgiving

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for a day of Thanksgiving.

Mighty God,
Father of all,
Compassionate God,
Mother of all,
bless every person I have met,
every face I have seen,
every voice I have heard,
especially those most dear;
bless every city, town, and
street that I have known,
bless every sight I have seen,
every sound I have heard,
every object I have touched.
In some mysterious way these
have all fashioned my life;
all that I am,
I have received.
Great God, bless the world.
~John J. Morris, SJ


If the only prayer you say in your life is thank you, that would suffice. ~Meister Eckhart

Hem your blessings with thankfulness so they don't unravel. ~Author Unknown

For this blessing, I am very grateful.

Amen.



Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Wednesday, 23 November 2005 - Guiding lights

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for the guiding lights that lead me down a creative and imaginative path.

It is better to fail in originality than to succeed in imitation. ~Herman Melville
Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage. ~Anais Nin

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Tuesday, 22 November 2005 - Food aplenty

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for food aplenty.

This afternoon, I shopped for our Thanksgiving meal (actually, it's a feast) and found everything on my list at my two favorite natural foods stores. I was lucky to be out and about today - the stores were already running low on some key ingredients like yams and chicken broth.

My husband and I originally planned to be out of town this weekend, but our plans went awry. So, we're having dinner with neighbors Thursday afternoon, and I'll cook a 23 pound turkey and all the trimmings on Friday.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Monday, 21 November 2005 - Personal growth

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for personal growth - no matter how painful.

Just as we outgrow a pair of trousers, we outgrow acquaintances, libraries, principles, etc., at times before they're worn out and times - and this is the worst of all - before we have new ones. ~G.C. Lichtenberg

The simplest questions are the most profound. Where were you born? Where is your home? Where are you going? What are you doing? Think about these once in a while and watch your answers change. ~Richard Bach

The man who views the world at fifty the same as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life. ~Muhammad Ali

Daily, I tell myself that my current trials will soon be over, that change is good, that "every day, in every way, I'm getting better and better." Yes, the pain is real, the trial long, the worry gut wrenching. But I am getting through this mess in better shape than I would have thought possible when it all started. A sure sign of personal growth. A true sign of faith.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Sunday, 20 November 2005 - Yes

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for the word, "yes." I prefer it to all the "no's" I heard while growing up - the ones that so carefully contained my childhood experiences.

I imagine that yes is the only living thing. ~e.e. cummings

I thank you God for this most amazing day,
for the leaping greenly spirits of trees,
and for the blue dream of sky and for everything which is natural,
which is infinite,
which is yes.
~e.e. cummings

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Saturday, 19 November 2005: Winter's "powdered sugar"

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for winter's powdered sugar.

As I open the front door, ready to take T on his morning walk, I am surprised (and secretly delighted) at what I see: a world is dusted in finely sifted confectioner's sugar. While we slept last night, a quiet storm crept into the neighborhood, leaving a layer of delicate white powder on everything!

I hate to ruin the pristine scene by stepping on the walkway and sidewalk. But, T is anxious to get to the park. So off we go into this winter wonderland of sorts. A perfect way to begin the weekend.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Friday, 18 November 2005 - Prayers

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for prayers.

I find great comfort in knowing that someone has prayed for me today.

Hem your blessings with thankfulness so they don't unravel. ~Author Unknown

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.


Thursday, November 17, 2005

Thursday, 17 November 2005: Winter storm

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for the winter storm that blew in suddenly late this morning.

The storm's unexpected appearance startled me. Because of the warm and dry autumn days we've enjoyed during the past weeks, I've become complacent about the weather. The blizzard reminded me that, as Coloradans who live in the mountains, we are susceptible to all of Mother Nature's whims and fancies.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Wednesday, 16 November 2005: Encouragement

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for any encouraging word from someone other than myself. It's hard to keep your spirits and motivation high when you are your only cheerleader.

Most of us, swimming against the tides of trouble the world knows nothing about, need only a bit of praise or encouragement - and we will make the goal. ~Jerome Fleishman

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Tuesday, 15 November 2005 - Timely words from Dr. Seuss

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for a few timely words from Dr. Seuss.

As you know, I am a lifelong word lover. I collect quotes year 'round - like to use them in Christmas gifts for family and friends. Here are a few of my favorites from Dr. Seuss:
  • Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.
  • Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.
  • If you never did, you should. These things are fun, and fun is good.
For these blessings, I am grateful.

Amen.

PS Thank you for the snow and wintry weather that hit Colorado last night - the marked change of seasons feels good even though the low tonight may fall into single digits. Brrrrrr. During the daytime, we keep the thermostat low - 60-63 degrees F. I'm wearing three layers of clothing on top, winter weight pants, heavy wool socks and cozy Teva boots.


Monday, November 14, 2005

Monday, 14 November 2005 - Wish lists

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for wish lists.

When my niece and nephew were much younger, they liked any gift I gave them. But, as they grew older, their unique tastes and preferences developed. Now, around this time of the year, my sister sends me their wish lists. I feel better giving them something they want rather than something I like. I'm sure the day will come when it's easier to give them money than to buy a gift. I hope that I never tire of the hunt for the "perfect" gift.

Even if the gift misses the mark, at least it invites a story - why I chose it, why it didn't work out, why the color is pretty but the texture wrong, why my niece kept it anyway, etc. Mere money leaves blank pages in one's journal. I like a more personal touch - to give something from the heart, something that says you were important enough that I took the time to look for a special gift to celebrate you.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Sunday, 13 November 2005 - Perfect conditions for a walk in the park

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for the perfect conditions for a walk in the park on a November afternoon.

one restless chocolate Lab + cold breezy weather despite sunny skies + warm hat, coat, socks and gloves + neighborhood park void of other people (they're all watching the Raiders-Broncos game) + time

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Saturday, 12 November 2005 - A new mixer

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for a new mixer.

My old Oster mixer/blender died after over 20 years of faithful service. So, I've had to use an even older hand mixer when I wanted to make a cake or cookies.

After much looking, I finally found an adequate replacement. We didn't replace the Oster with the fancy Viking or KitchenAid I really wanted (can't justify a $500 appliance right now). Instead, we bought a heavy duty but sleek-looking Kenmore mixer that was on sale, online, with free delivery. I "baptized" the new mixer today by making a batch of oatmeal-chocolate chip-walnut-sunflower/pumpkin seed cookies bars. Very yummy.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Friday, 11 November 2005: Veterans

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for our war veterans. I count many among my family and friends.

For this blessing, I am very grateful.

Amen.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Thursday 10 November 2005 - A full pantry

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for a full pantry.

While so many Americans wonder where their next meal will come from, I am a bit embarrassed by the amount of food we have in the pantry, refrigerator and freezer. In spite of our history of job losses and financial challenges, we have never gone hungry. I've always been able to buy the organic fruits and vegetables and "natural" meats we prefer.

So, this year, we've been donating to local charities that run food banks and Meals-on-Wheels programs. In our rich (and very wasteful) country, no one should go hungry.

For this blessing, I am truly grateful.

Amen.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Wednesday, 9 November 2005 - "M"

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for M, the very talented woman who cuts and highlights my hair.

Her precision razor cuts and sense of color are pure magic. This afternoon, she gave my dark brown cut-in-a-bob hair some bold blond, red and purple highlights. Now, I feel like a very modern, artsy, have-it-all-together-at-least-some-of-the-time woman.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Tuesday, 8 November 2005 - Packets of seeds

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for packets of seeds, ready for fall and winter planting.

They arrived a few days ago - the organic/heritage seeds I ordered from Plants of the Southwest. I didn't order anything exotic - just seeds for plants that I know will grow in the backyard.

Desert Four o'Clock (mirabilis multiflora) - The plants I bought grew very well in my xeric garden in the front yard - actually matured and flowered beautifully about two months after planting. I decided to try to grow them from seed in the back yard. The plant has a very long taproot that helps it survive our arid summers. I bought 100 seeds and planted 40 today.

Three-leaf Sumac (rhus trilobata) - You see these plants in gardens throughout Colorado. I'm trying to grow mine from seed. I planted several seeds along the north fence - the shrubs will form a border for my wildflower gardens. The description on the seed packet tells me that this sumac variety has tart berries that I can use to make a lemony drink.

New Mexico Privet (forestiera neomexicana) - This deciduous shrub can be pruned into a tree or left alone to form a hedge. It attracts birds (yeah!). I planted several seeds in the southwest corner of the yard - very fertile area since we covered the ground with dug-up sod.

High Plains Wildflowers - I will spread this "yummy" mixture over my larger plots to rejuvenate the garden. I like to plant these seeds around mid-winter just before a major snowstorm. I can't wait to see what flowers will bloom in the coming seasons.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Monday, November 07, 2005

Monday, 7 November 2005 - The courage to speak up

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for the courage to speak up.

I wrote to a city official to complain about a potential problem in the park - a recent occurrence that's been bugging me for days. My neighbors, who are also bothered by the problem, told me to let it go. But I just couldn't - this time.

So, this morning, I sent an email to the head of the Parks department advising him of the issue. He wrote me back, explaining that he asked two staff members to investigate the matter. He also said that he will let me know the outcome.

Sometimes, it pays to air your grievances (and, often, it doesn't). Over the years, I've learned to pick my battles carefully - sage advice when dealing with local officials and life, in general.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Sunday, 6 November 2005 - A resolution

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for a resolution to help tame my critical nature.

The resolution, below, found its way to me this morning in an email. Since I tend to be hypercritical of myself and others, I liked its message and immediately decided to add it to my collection of self-improvement prayers, mantras and poems.

Let us all resolve:
First to attain the grace of silence;
Second to deem all fault-finding that does no good a sin...
Third to practice the grace and virtue of praise.

~ Harriet Beecher Stowe

My version:

I resolve:
First, to practice the grace of silence since not all of my opinions are worth airing;
Second, to stop being so critical of myself and others because this tendency is hurtful;
Third, to practice daily the grace and virtue of praise by looking for the good in myself and others.


For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Saturday, 5 November 2005 - An unexpected invitation

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for an unexpected invitation from our neighbor to attend a pow-wow tonight. Since we have nothing special planned for the evening, we decide to go. We can't wait to watch R perform - he's an exceptional dancer.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Friday, November 04, 2005

Friday, 4 November 2005 - A breath of fresh air

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for a breath of fresh air.

After working indoors for several hours, I need a break. The violent winds that wreaked havoc yesterday have finally subsided. The blue skies and sunshine are alluring. Since T is also restless, I decide to take him for a quick spin around the park.

As I open the front door, the fresh air rushes in. I stop for a few seconds to bathe my face in the refreshing coolness and to enjoy the woodsy fragrance. Then, I take a deep breath and exhale slowly, hoping to release my body's staleness. By now, T is anxious to get going. He pulls impatiently on the leash. We walk quickly down the front steps and along the sidewalk to the park, anticipating the impending adventure.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Thursday, 3 November 2005 - Flexible schedule

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for a flexible schedule.

I know that I'm being a bit foolish by knitting well past midnight, but I am anxious to finish the sweater I started a few days ago. However, I am paying a severe penalty when it comes to my schedule.

By getting to bed around 2 AM, I'm sacrificing the pleasure of watching the sunrise and taking T, our chocolate Labrador retriever, on an early morning walk in the neighborhood. I also lose my personal writing time. Oh, how I wish I didn't have to choose between writing and knitting.

I ask T for help and advice (he goes to bed very early most nights - sometimes as soon as the sun sets). He looks at me with his soulful eyes and nudges me gently with his cold nose. Then, in his own special way, he tells me that he doesn't see a problem as long as he gets his walk. Then, he resumes his very important task du jour - chewing on a favorite bone. I guess whatever works for me will work for him.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Wednesday, 2 November 2005 - An enchanted place

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for an enchanted place where I can dream.

There is a garden in every childhood, an enchanted place where colors are brighter, the air softer, and the morning more fragrant than ever again. ~Elizabeth Lawrence

Inspired by an episode of BBC's As Time Goes By, I am re-reading Winnie the Pooh and The House at Pooh Corner, two of my very favorite books from childhood.

At bedtime, I read a chapter or two, smiling quietly at the misadventures of Pooh and friends. Then, I close the book and spend a minute contemplating the story just told before turning out the light and drifting off to sleep. In the midst of my dreams, I find my own enchanted place hidden deep in the Thousand Acre Woods.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Tuesday, 1 November 2005 - The right to vote

Dear God:

Today, I am thankful for the right to vote.

My voting life began in June 1972, when I cast my ballot in the presidential primary. I was an 18 year old high school senior ready to graduate in a few days. I remember driving to the polling place with my parents, entering the house, registering with the election officer, and casting my vote. I don't know if they gave voters an "I Voted" sticker in those days. If they did, I'm sure I wore it proudly and happily.

Many years ago, I was complaining to my colleagues about an elected official. Someone heard my rantings and asked if I had voted in the election. He/she told me that if I don't vote, I don't have the right to complain about the results of a given election. I'm sure that I did vote in that election. However, the warning comes back to me every election season. In our household, we make it a priority to exercise our right to vote whenever the opportunity arises. Plus, I like to wear the "I Voted" sticker - a badge of honor for a good citizen.

For this blessing, I am grateful.

Amen.